Lacking focus. Public ramblings. Read at your own risk. :-)
I was planning on going to CrossFit tonight, but opted to stay home and catch up on my New Yorker reading instead. Why? I'm a little worn out tonight (and just started my period), but those aren't very good excuses for not exercising AT ALL today... and hardly at all recently. I feel like I need some good, clear short- and long-term goals. Becoming a better Ultimate player? Definitely... but tournaments are a looong ways away, so it's easy to procrastinate on that front. Losing body fat? For sure. To that end, I'm cutting calories (which goes directly against your advice, A, I know!!) in hopes of fitting into last year's jeans by February... and definitely feeling low-energy as a result. But I just want to shed some inches from my hips and then I'll do it right...
I don't want to do CrossFit for its own sake. I don't really care how much weight I can lift... although I like being strong. And I believe I could become incredibly fit if I stick with CF. But what's the greater purpose of that? Ultimate, I suppose. I'd love to be a great player. But I still can't/don't layout, I'm not aggressive, etc. Being fit would make the game more enjoyable for me personally... maybe I just need to stop comparing myself to everyone else. Hmm.
Jeez, clearly I need to spend more time articulating this stuff to myself. I don't know what I want!